Monday, January 4, 2010

Kelly Clarkson heals the soul..

Today. More bad news. How do I handle it? Not as well as one would hope, but I did take the high road. It's over and done and now I can move on. The person I spoke of in my previous entry is now out of my life. This should make me happy, and I am, but a part of me still hurts because it's so fresh. It really is. And I'm really disappointed in him. I've lost a ton of respect for him... that just proves that now is the time to move on. So I am... well I'm half way there.

My friend told me today that it takes half of the time your relationship was to get over the person and move on. Well mine was a year, so it's 6 months, but 2 have already passed by. I can't wait for the next 4 months.

I wish I could say that I'm happy for him, but I'm not. I actually just really feel bad for him. I wish for him to have happiness, because I don't think this is really what he wants. But I could be wrong, like I said before, I don't really know him anymore.

After talking to my friend I decided the best thing for me to do was to listen to Kelly Clarkson. Isn't that funny. But it actually made me feel better, so thats good. She has some great music and great lyrics. And it's a little freaky how close the lyrics resemble my situation. "Never Again" is what I'm currently listening to... on repeat. It may be a little angry, but it's helpful. It;s actually making me calm down.

Anyways, my New Years resolution was to move on and get over the past (and to stop drinking soda again). So far so good. I'm taking the steps I need to, and I feel good about the decisions I've made thus far. I want this year to be about discovering things about myself, and I just want to be happy. I am happy, but I'm not all the way there yet.

To quote Ingrid Michaelson, "Happy is the heart that still feels pain."

1 comment:

  1. We love Kelly Clarkson at our house too. Also, try Pink. She's aggro. XO