Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I think I'm growing up.

I'm noticing that I seem to be acting almost like a real grown up. Well, kind of. I don't have a job and I still depend on my parents, and I'm still in college. But... I do feel like I'm becoming a bit wiser and more confident. I think the best thing about what I'm discovering about myself is that I've become so much more positive. I've detached myself from the negativities that used to haunt me, and now I just feel so relieved, and happy, and refreshed. I'm not holding onto anything anymore that's only going to drag me down, because I was for a long time. Maybe I'm just finally getting the hang of college. I don't know. But I'm really happy. Really, really happy. And I'm proud of myself for doing this on my own. Everything I've gone through in the past 6 months has been difficult, heartbreaking, and stressful, but I got through it and I learned from it. I've made these little changes in my life, and I feel like I'm a better person, and in a way better place than I used to be. And I'm no longer harboring any anger towards anyone, which is a huge thing. It's just not good to have anger, which I finally figured out, haha.

I've started working out too! Funny how once you finally start working out, you realize that it actually does work! I'm eating a bit healthier too. I don't know, I guess these are just small little changes, but I feel so good! This is probably the happiest I've ever been, and I don't want it to go away. And the best part about it is that none of this has anything to do with a guy. There are no men in my life right now, and I'm finally focusing on myself for once, which is totally fantastic!!!! This is the way it should be.

So yeah, I think this means I'm growing up.